What an interesting week we have had at Love Bomb Cushions. I got to pitch for a business award locally and won! There were 5 of us that won the award. We had to pitch for 10 minutes each then answer questions for 10 minutes. As always, I ran over and had a lot to say, something happens to me when I start talking about my business and I just can’t stop, as anyone who tuned into my Dragons Den appearance will have seen!
I have always shied away from entering awards in the past, mainly due to confidence issues. Now if you were to meet me you would never know this, it is a closely guarded secret going back 35 plus years that I struggle with my confidence. Appearing on Dragons Den definitely cured a great deal of these issues but as everyone knows occasionally these feelings come back and make an ugly appearance.
Standing up and speaking about my experiences, pitching and generally engaging me in anything I am passionate about where telling my story could inspire another person, I am in. Awards, well I guess that’s where I struggle, they are so much more personal, an achievement to show the world something and I am not big at that, which is ironic since I entered myself for Dragons Den. The PR that comes with an appearance on Dragons Den is like a machine, it charges ahead the minute you have aired and you have to go with it no matter how uncomfortable it feels at times. I learnt so much about myself through the process and I have to say people were so kind to me.
So why haven’t I told anyone I have won this award last week I ask myself? I guess it’s because after winning I realised I still have confidence issues to face, big sigh! It can seem endless the journey we go on sometimes and just when you think you have it sussed another challenge arises. Putting yourself out there is a vulnerable thing. It exposes you to the possibility of judgement, people’s perceptions of you, you have to be prepared to take good or bad and that’s the bit that unnerves me. Although I have to say everyone is so kind so it these feelings don’t make sense at all!
Growing up as a kid I found life hard, maybe that’s why I am so driven to make Love Bomb Cushions succeed, after all they say often we channel our feelings into something that’s positive. After my son died all these feelings came to a head and I have been blessed to have been on a journey since to face them. Love Bomb Cushions has given me the opportunity to go to some vulnerable and uncomfortable places where I have had to believe in myself 100%. We all have that person, encounter, situation where we feel like we have grown from the interaction so I am hoping that telling you this and announcing that yippee I won an award is mine. No gloss of improving my turnover or kicking ass in the world just that I am proud I pitched and remembered it, that they loved the business as much as we do and the future is very bright for us on our journey doing something we love!